hello hello! :)

lama sudah diri ini tidak berblogging..kan? hajat di hati nk merapu2 rite after merdeka aritu..

tapi mcm entahlah..not in the mood of blogging at that time...

n now neh pon...bcoz i am so very bored! everybody is checking out by today! :(

so i have have have to be alone until he comes tomorrow evening..i'l be alone..again..pathetic!

so any idea of what i'm gonna do to spent my day all alone?

::activities that popped up into mind::

**fish ville

**cafe world

**eclipse

n eat eat eat!

dear tomorrow evening..please be fasttt! i desperately need someone..in other words..need him..

yes so that i won't be alone..thought of spending my time with beloved friends..

but i'm pretty sure that all of them are busy..packing, checking out..isn't it?

08th november 1990

ouh today is my day.. :)

the day when i was born 19 years ago..yep2 i'm 19 by now.. :D

i'm old kan? this is my last year celebrating birthday with the number 1 in front of it.. :)

nnt next year..i'll turn 20..much more older..as my sis said..

when we turn 20..we r eligible of becoming a wife to somebody..kekeke..(gediksss)

but nyhow..this post is actually to thank all my friends that have lightened my day..

thanx to all who wish me, who pray for me, who gave me presents n who even sing a song for me!

thanx dear all..i rilly appreciate it..so muchhh! :D

again, million of thanx!

i've enjoyed 2 days..yesterday n today..

i ignored my econs book n notes..n i put aside my psych notes...

crazy isn't it? i shud have studied..for my final..

but now..see..i'm blogging! n facebooking..n myspacing!

ish2 xsedar diri sungguh! -.-'

xpe..now i'll go..study n i'll stop at 11.55 pm..

i've a date with MAN U! :D

pray for the success of my MAN U k!

for those who rily rily rily against MAN U...hmmm

dun like u! haahahahha ^o^

~chow cin chow~

.current.

current activity :

*facebooking, myspacing, blogging*

current feeling :

*missing him a lot*

current mood :

*undefined..(gile, sewel)*

current pop-ups in mind :

*genting, mohd hanif, rumah*

current need :

*v-soy, cookie crisps..yg ad kt dapur..tp mlas nk jalan..*

current wants :

*handphone baru, duit duit duit n duit*

current news :

*mama suruh bwat check up, makan ubat*

current gift :

*vacation in the hospital 4 xtau bape hari..offered by mama..(mama ckp sye xshat..yeke?)

current urge :

*mahu peluk adik sye yg sgt sgt bulat n besar, lin nmenye :)*

.......

ok..mari dgr luahan hati sye utk hari ini..

boley x if sye nk ckp..sye BENCI maths?

i HATE maths..sgt2.. :(

n after exam maths td..i feel like..

"o my god! boley ke fly neh?"

rse mcm sume harapan2 yg pnat sye semai utk maths hancur mcm tuh je..(exaggerate neh)

yelah..mne x nye..cbe kre eh..

i did..not me sorg2 lah..ktorg la kan..kre sume dak2 sam..

bwat trials, mock, even yg external papers utk past years..bukan stahun..tp bertahun2..

n bkan bwat skali..tp berkali2..but still..

hari ni..ble sume abs je maths..

"ap ni? nape strcture dy mcm laen ng yg pnh kte bwat?"

ap lah salah kami wahai sace board? xley ke kasi soalan yg sng2 sket? xnk kasi ktorg fly eh?

huh..sadis sadis..kalo nk kre kan..paper maths yg utk final neh la yg sye mcm..kre put more more more n more effort than paper2 yg sblumnye..

sbbnye..ble bwat past years pny..rse mcm a bit cnfdnt la bly jwab utk paper neh..

tapi! harapan jela..bye bye la forecast mark yg A17 tuh..

mmg kne kiss gudbye jauh2..n nk kne kiss welcome C11 kah? haduiii xmaw xmaw!

ni baru je paper maths n english yg da lpas..yg lg 3 tuh? nk jadi mcm maths ni jgk?

nk ssah jgk? nk bwat sye rse mcm bodoh yg amat jgk?

oo plis lah..sng kan sket eh paper2 yg lagi 3 tuh? ok? tolong kami ye sace board..

ok..now i feel like..on my way to be a lunatic..

mama ckap.."jgn give up dear..maybe ni bkan rezeki kakak..strggle utk paper laen k?"

n..mama da solat hajat utk sye pagi tadi..mama sye baek kan?

but i'm rily sory ma..cudn't make u proud of me.. :(

n..papa ckap.."dun look back..bia je paper maths 2..if possible..do not talk bout it nymore..look 4ward..there r 3 more papers 2 go..doa so dat dat papers bly cover yg maths ni.."

he always make me feel better..i love u papa..

but still..i have 2 say sory 2..now kakak kne tarik balik promise of getting 5As..

sbb utk maths ni...i surely get.......... :(

hmmm...ok this is dugaan kan? sbb as papa said..

"if exam 2 snang..xdela org yg xpndai..kan?" yeke mcm 2?

ntah ntah ntah..

sye dah discourage..sudah helpless...sudah rse mcm mahu give up..

kalo sye stay dkt uitm dlu..jd mcm ni jgk ke?

ok stop..sye mcm dah xlrat nk fkir..

tdo jom?

setelah sekian lame..

next week is..FINAL

n me..still blogging, facebooking, myspacing, ym-ing n a lots of ing2..

yes..i'm too relax! as if sume da khatam..ey hello! mcm pndai kan?

gile punye fathin nabila!

ntahla..its not like i dun wana study..

tp mood 2..mood utk study 2..as if it vanished! n i'm not able to seru it back..huh

anybody..ad tips utk xjadi malas x?

:)(:

hye everyone..rse mcm da lme xberceloteh.. :p

hmm..hjung mggu ini..ouh bosan yg amat!

rse mcm nk mati pn ad..haha..bygkn la..

2 hri cuti sye xtau nk bwat ap..

hw mcm da abs wat (yeke? ad la sket yg xcmplete..haha)

tv mcm xde cte bes..org2 yg bes utk chttng pn cm bz..

sumpah rse mcm hdup sorg2..

nk kua xde teman..mama pn pesan.."weekend ni duk umh je eh..study!"

huh..pnat2..btol lah org ckp..kte lg penat kalo xde kje nk bwat...

sbb pnat pk ap yg ptut kte bwat..btol kn?

hmm btw kan..sye trngt sorg kwan sye neh...

xtaula sme ad dy 2 ptut di igt atau pn x..

"ak rse mcm geli nk kwan ng ko.."

sye igt ayt dy tuh..dlu,skng n smpai ble2 pn..thanx kwan..

sbb pnh ckp cm2 kt sye.. :) at least sye tau sye ad byk sgt kekurangan..

dy pn pnh tny sye jgk.."mcm mne la rmai org bly suke ko? org len lagi rami yg cntik2!"

hmm..maafla kwan..smpai skng pn sye xtau ap nk jwab..

sbb ap yg awk ckp kt sye 2..ad 2 facts..stu yg xbtol n stu yg btol..

rmai org suke sye? 2 stu fact yg slah..fact yg btol adlah : xde spe yg suke sye..

yg kedua tuh..rmai lg pmpuan cntik..oh yg 2..sgtlah btol..sye skong awk.. :)

ntah..bialah dy..dy xsuke sye lah 2 kan? nsb bek dy ckp trus trng ng sye..

time kaseh lg skali kwn.. :)

xpe2..n anybdy aftr this yg nk komen sye dpan2..silekan...sye trme :)

at least sye tau ap yg org xsuke psl sye..kan2? ;)

ok dh..ckup la cte psal kwn sye tuh..kte cte psal len plak.. :)

sye rse mcm nk pegi pntai..kalo tbe2 sye duk kt ats psir tgk laut..

n tbe2 sye tdo xbgun2 pn xpe.. :)

nk pg pntai......nybdy nk bwk x? hmmm

heeee..kalo sye bly fly thun dpan (insyaAllah) sye nk kne pg mne2 pntai or laut kt msia ni dlu.. :D

igtnye..nnt akhr thun ni..sye nk pjuk mama ng papa sye..

bwk pegi pulau mne2..weeee~~ besnye angan2! :)))

ok stop cte psal angan2 sye..n stop cte psal ap2..

sbb sye mcm da penattttt..(even sye xbwat pape pn arini..heeeeee)

can i?

can i run away from all my probs?

can i act as i'm the one who rule my world?

can i pretend not to noe what love is?

can i be the one who never be hurt by love?

can i be what i want to be?

can i hate u once?

can i end my life now?

CAN I?

i'm gay!

yeayyyyy!!! :))

people!! i'm absolutely gay rite now!

*da merdeka*

*nk shopping*

*nk balek klantan*

*nk RAYA!*

yeayyyy!!

heee..bt however..

i will not be able to online..rsenye la kot..

its highly likely for me not to online..

so..nk wish awl2 lah..

HAPPY HARI RAYA EVERYONE!! :)

MAAF ZAHIR AND BATIN YEE..

mulut ini

mulut ini pernah berkata..

"i trust u.."

mulut ini pernah bersuara...

menyatakan rindu di hati..

mulut ini pernah menyatakan janji..

janji untuk tidak meragui..

mulut ini pernah ketawa..

kerana gembira dengan gurauan si dia..

mulut ini pernah menjerit pada diri sendiri..

"percayalah pd dy..positif lah pd setiap ap yg dilakukannya..dan jgnlah kamu menuduh dy tanpa sebab..kerana..dy lah yg telah berjaya membuat ak ketawa di kala ak tidak mampu utk tersenyum pn.."

wahai hati..dengarlah kata-kata mulut..

review

monday : national day.holiday.

tuesday : prepared 4 math test.kot.(yeke?) maybelah.cudnt remember much.

wednesday : maths DI.blank.kalut.

thursday : maths DI.again.did a huge mistake at first.didnt realize the 'to' n 'from' thingy.last 10 minutes,i realized it.thank God!

friday : maths test.quite blur kot.dont remember.n.i lost my hp! damn pickpocket took it.stupid u!

saturday : stayed at kajang.searched 4 bju rya.n didnt found any.(penat je jalan!)

sunday : searched 4 bju rya.again.n the result was the same.didnt found any! n i gve up searchng in kajang.

monday : went to shh alm.found maroon kebaya :) very glad!

ok.thats it.my one week cycle.the most malang day was on friday! ****!

oh dear pickpocket,

"weh! ak beli phone 2 gne duet hadiah SPM ak taw! ak punye kumpul duet banyak2..ko bedal cm2 je phone ak! cube kalo ko ckp ng ak btol2.."awk..sye nk phone awk bole?"

myb lah ak akn pk sme ad nk ksi ko or x! ngek! cube kalo ko pye kne CURIK cm2..ap ko rse?

ad otak ad akal..pk la sket!"

(oh maaf ye..emo sedikit..tp jgn rsaw..ini utk pickpocket itu saje..bukan utk readers sye.. :) laenlah kalo anda pickpocket 2! :p)